Forsaken Sanctuary

2007-01-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

juz reach home after watchin death note 2.. this round of IQ battling between L and Light is damn solid.. and amane misa is so kawaii.. hahaha.. love her sia.. need to sleep le.. nite..

2007-01-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

final after much editing and efforts.. i finish this blog skin editing le.. took me awhile sia.. it the new year and thing may have changes alot.. but towards the new year.. all i have to wish for is to faster ORD and everything in this new will go smoothly for mi.. smooth sailing..

Been in Special Ops Commands for nearly two month le. oso quite used to the workin hours and 14hrs of pure standing.. as a officer in uniform.. protectin the country is great but playing pranks on GINNAS is even better.. hahaha.. think i juz blog till here.. kinda tired after ytd shift..

2006-09-16T01:38:00.000+08:00

after a week and i back to blog.. been quite slacking this week at work.. go there not sleep den it eating.. hahaha.. everything have been cater for us and i go there juz eat anad eat sia.. so shiok..!!!

it been 1 yr 6mths since i lost contact with you.. and i been meeting you for the past 2 week.. although a short period but still to me it the most enoyable 2weeks of my life since i was born.. hahaha.. say till too hua zhang le ba.. hahaha.. but for the road that yet to come.. wat will our life be ahead..

lately im stressed and i still dunno what is happening to me.. am i havin depression or am i juz thinking too much.. i know many will say that i'm thinking too much ba.. but there problems many ppl will not understand and they might nv get close to understand it.. am self-fish not to share my problems but am juz dun feel like being a burden to anyone i love and care..

- heavy-hearted -

2006-09-09T01:05:00.000+08:00

finish work at 530.. first thing that came to my mind is to rush home to rest.. today is the onli day that i went home after work and rest.. onli to meet you later for dinner.. which is at 10.. lol.. supper liao ba.. hehe..

many things running through my mind during this week and it getting mi on my nerves in sorting them out.. realy feel freaking tired of handling such matters.. am always full of problems..

have a great evening with you and although we met each other for 4 days in five nights.. hahaha.. alot of times.. but great to be going out with you and really feel happy about it.. looking forward to many many other outing with you..

2006-09-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

been posted to the C.I.D for around 4 days le.. have to slacking around in the office doing nothing.. sian sia.. tmk stay work at 9.. cuz today end work late..

international monetary fund meeting will commence this sunday and i think after sunday will be veri busy liao.. so thinking back.. slacking now is like the quietness before the storm le.. hahaha.. think i think too much le ba..

for three days straight after i stay out.. i went out practically after work everyday.. tmk oso going out sia.. thinkin of my pocket.. now got one super duper big hole ar.. luckliy tmk is fren treat at fish & co. sia.. if not.. i self-declare bankrupt.. anyone out there wanna donate to this poor handsome kid.. hehehe..

peeps who owe mi money.. pl s pay mi back asap pls.. thanks.. hahaha..
money issue is veri veri sensitive one..!!!

- waiting for 12th sep -
- broke -

2006-09-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

it sunday again.. hahaha.. but today im not going back to home team.. cuz tmk will be my finial day there and being posted to division le..

life gonna change for me again.. cuz of the singapore 2006.. im deployed for the international monetary fund meeting.. gotta stay out daily and go home everyday.. hahaha.. so happy.. hehehe..

ytd the open house was a great bang sia.. meet up with you and had a great chat..

2006-09-02T16:40:00.000+08:00

finally the parade is over.. overall our performance is quite amazing.. and the vip are veri happy with it.. inculding our officier.. hahaha.. two more days and i will be post to division le.. dunno wat my life will be at there.. buti think it much better than staying in hta and havin to fear those annoyin F.I. comin to disturb us..

later still have to go back to Home Team.. abit wastin my precious time sia.. hai.. sat burned..

2006-09-01T19:29:00.000+08:00

today gotta go home early but later still have to book in back top Home Team again.. tmk will be the official opening ceremony.. and i will be in the marching contingent and this is the first ever grand event i will be participating.. it a tiring procedure.. but the effort and hardwork put in will be a great success tomorrow.. signing off for now..

2006-08-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

i will be going back to HTA later.. very soon.. deep down in my heart.. having this feeling now.. i dun wanna go back.. i hate sunday.. why it came so fast.. seriously thinking.. i have to go back and do all sort of training.. after one month.. today is the first time i really dun feel like going back.. i wanna stay home.. i missed everyone outside..

ytd after a small gathering with my frenz.. i went home and think of the possible careers i can go for after my ns.. but nothing came up.. i muz start planning now.. if not.. i wont be able to make it if i keep on dreaming.. i muz strive for everything i have planned to get..

ytd.. saw you.. so moody.. maybe too tired.. or maybe something bothering you.. i dunno.. nv wan to see all this.. haiz..

2006-08-09T19:06:00.000+08:00

gotta booked out ytd.. but i booked out with sickness.. from sunday till now keep having this annoying sorethroat cum coughing.. ytd night running on high fever.. and couldnt get a good rest.. now after the med feeling better le.. later have to book in again.. thinking back.. it seem so fast when 1 month have already passed.. and it seem the exam of the police is coming nearer and nearer.. have to work hard for everything..

actually today have to meet up with my sista ada.. but i was too sick to leave my house and the onli thing i could do is to sms her to cancel the meeting.. i'm sorry sista.. felt realli bad stooding you up..

have to go prepare liao..

-depressed-

2006-08-06T19:47:00.000+08:00

it almost been one month since i last posted anything on this blog le.. have been enlisted into the police force.. and it been quite tedious mangain time when i booked out the first time.. have to mangae my time well to accompany my frenz and family..

ytd went out to meet my ite schmate.. and we went to watch the fireworks which display by italy.. it so fancinating and it feel so good when you are watching such event with your frenz.. it really feel long since we last gather.. next week will be going to cathc the last of the firework and after that will be my long waiting soon-to-be POP le.. hahaha..

although it been so long le.. feeling still reside in the heart and many things have happened in between.. so all there left to do is to let time reveal everything before my eyes and see how am i going to take the good and the bad that gonna come into my life again..

-booking in-
-feeling depressed-
-gonna miss all my frenz-

2006-07-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

today the day tom got enlisted.. 4 more days later will be my turn.. hahaha.. kinda got this feelin of excited and afraid.. may afraid of the new environment ba.. but nonetheless.. this is the path where i muz walk..

when i get in sure miss everyone out here.. think onli stay in 10days ba.. so by nex nex fri can book out le.. hopefully can..

- waiting for mac delivery -
- hungry now -

2006-06-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

workin few days at the samsung roadshow.. been veri active in work ever since the pc show.. think getting used to workin liao le.. going in amry nex month.. think goin to pei my family more and especially my mum.. gonna miss her sia..

today japan lost.. really unlucky sia.. lead all the way until the 70min mark.. and 84 min mark.. plus one stoppage time sia.. really suay sia..

missin someone now.. hahaha.. who is it.. guess lo..

2006-06-05T09:40:00.000+08:00

after 4 days of working at the it show.. finally it over.. it really tiring sia..after the it show.. met king on the bus.. and he ask me to join them for supper.. cuz at the it show.. we didnt had proper meal for 4 days sia.. so i join them.. nv expected that the 'them' is the boss of tekmedia.. had a shocked when i reach there.. so the first time i saw the five boss of tekmedia.. lol.. but got to know them alittle bit more.. and kinda surprise.. the boss actually know me out of so many ppl in tekmedia..

after tat.. went home sleep.. since the first day.. nv got enough sleep..

2006-05-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

here i am.. feelin so scare and afraid.. dunno of wat that make me so scare.. it juz an IT show.. but wat scaring me sia.. i know i didnt know much on asus laptop.. and i scare of losing face if i nv sell any.. but are the ppl good enogh to teach me or are they going to let mi die on my own.. dat for me to find out tmk.. now juz feeelin afraid..

think through many things liao.. maybe it better for me to put down everything now and move on.. but still i will stay behind her.. helpin her through bad times and bring joy to her life..

2006-05-29T02:34:00.000+08:00

feelin down now.. tmk have to go for asus trainin.. sellin laptop at the IT show.. will i be able to do it.. or am i going to fail this time..

- cuz i had a bad day -

2006-05-27T02:26:00.000+08:00

wasnt feelin well lately.. was sick for the week and continue workin.. think it all the late night and not enough water den cause the sickness.. terible week too.. was working at mustafa.. for mon and tue.. my sales was great.. but sold too much.. wed, thur and fri.. not enough stock.. so total of units sold for the 5 days were 56 set.. tat onli half the quota i set..

going to work for IT show this june.. and sellin somthing i not veri good at.. i will be selling laptop and it asus brand one.. dunno can made good sales anot..

feelin for her grew as time goes ba.. missin her presence made mi crazy.. but all i can do now is to stand by her and protect her from any means of harm.. being her guardian angel is wat i would like to do if im dead..

- wish i was dead -

2006-05-21T14:04:00.000+08:00

finally booked my tp liao le.. thought have to wait long.. but the date is 15th jun... the one i expected one.. so now all i need to do is to go for revision, revision and more revision.. lol.. have to pass it.. no choice liao.. hahaha...

2006-05-20T21:31:00.000+08:00

today.. i pass my lesson 8.. first time try.. den i pass.. but the sad thing is i cannot book my tp.. cuz it fully book.. hope the next one is on the 22nd of june.. cuz i going ns soon liao.. so have to faster clear my lesson.. so happy.. my hardwork have finally paid off..

2006-05-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

finally after 3months of resting.. i resume my bike lesson today.. going to rush before i go in army.. lesson 8 on this sun.. and i have to one time pass.. going to pia.. hahaha.. later got bball.. so muz go rest awhile liao.. been at ssdc for 4 hours striaght.. went for 2 circuit revision at one go.. abit tiring.. lol..

2006-05-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

today is a great day sia.. one thing is that i can work for the it show on jun.. hope can get alot of sales.. den today sales quite good la.. atleast 10 sets on a monday.. not bad liao.. hahaha.. lately getting cheerful day by day.. maybe is the change of character in me ba.. cuz last time me veri moody one.. abit abit den will like sian liao.. dun wish to do anything liao.. tmk going to train train train.. muz get better and better.. if not.. cannot play with my fren liao.. muz get better..

leg finally recover liao le.. so happy.. now muz take good care of this leg liao.. if not.. it really wan dan liao le..hahaha..

2006-05-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

ytd night chat on phone with a good fren and this is wat she told me.. maybe if you dun wanna lose the feeling for that somebody.. maybe you can try going after her again.. i was like thinking.. whether thing are going my way or.. cuz i have to think of the consequences after i told her i still have feelings for her.. maybe she will avoid me or even dun be frens with me liao.. i dun wan this to happen.. cuz i have a veri hard time starting to tok with her and now we are frenz again.. so i have to think veri carefully before telling her the truth.. it not always so easily one..

my fren oso told me that she rather her best fren be with me den that someone lo.. cuz that particular someone really dunno the basic manner of not flirting with gals when you told everyone that you are going after this gal.. damn freaking pissed off..

if i will to tell her i still have feelings for her.. wat will she do.. wat kind of reply will i get.. or should i have already guess the answer liao.. and i dun think i will let her know this soon ba.. cuz this will be too much for her to handle.. and that wat i dun wan to happen.. i onli wan her to be happy.. whether i can bring her happiness or wat.. i still will be watching after her.. cuz she the one i really love the most..

2006-05-12T01:37:00.000+08:00

lately i find myself harder to get to sleep early.. keep thinkin of.. why feelings exists.. it been two years liao.. the feeling should have died off.. but it reappear.. and i cant help by thinkin of that particular person.. wat i should do now.. anyone can help me now.. now someone is going after her and that somebody is sort of my buddy.. wat to do sia.. see liao heartache le.. and he keep rubbin salt into my wound..it pianful juz by watching liao.. that somebody have to keep doing all this stupid things infront of me.. wat are you trying to prove to me.. trying to prove that you are better than me izzir.. is winning really that important to you..

my fren told mi that i was a good fren of him is cuz i can stand his nonsense.. by human beings are created with a limit.. once that limit is crossed.. there will be no frenship taken into consideration..but when will my limit be crossed.. when will he stopped all his nonsense..

god wont help me now.. all i can do now.. is to do wat right to wat i have done wrong two years ago.. you are not worth her love i can say.. cuz you have done many thing which make me sick.. seriously you better dun crossed my limit.. cuz you will regret when you do it..

2006-05-11T16:58:00.000+08:00

jux came home after visting to the doc..felt relieved when the doc told mi my injuries isn't a serious case.. luckily nv kana the old injuries.. if not.. that the end of my basketball life liao.. the doc onli told mi that my left knee cap " song le ".. i listen liao abit strange.. loosen still can walk le.. hahaha.. den he say.. have to wrap it for mi.. eat med oso.. so mafan.. but no choice.. my leg is veri precious.. den now can onli slack at home.. tmk have a long day. need to work.. so today muzget as much rest as possible..

2006-05-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

today is a veri bad day for mi sia.. went for bball after a week of rest.. thinkin finally today can play some bball liao.. but at the first match accident happened..am defending this flying guy.. so my right knee cap collied into his left one.. and i lost balance and fell to the ground.. this is still counted as small matter.. but the worst thing is he too lost balance and fell butt first towards my left knee cap.. the impact forced my knee cap to hit the floor hard.. at that point of time..the pain is so unbearable.. no choice have to be carried out of the court sia.. for the whole night there see ppl play.. it so sian ar.. think tmk have to go see doctor liao.. if not.. i'm worried for my future.. hahahaha.. hope it get better in the morning..

2006-05-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

juz got home after a long day at work.. woke up late in the morning cuz of the fever.. wasnt feeling well since last night den no choice for the money.. have to go work.. reach workplace at about 115.. late liao.. so no choice have to go home later abit.. juz to cover up the time i'm late..

but today i bought a wireless keyboard and it quite fun to use it .. my com going wireless liao.. dunno whether if there any wireless speakers.. the last thing that is connected to my cpu is my speaker.. lol.. haveto savethe money up liao.. no spending of money on thing i wan..

having a feeling for someone that so near to you and you cannot be with that particular person is a veri devastating feelin.. wanna say it out.. but are afraid of the consequence after saying out..

2006-05-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

OMG.. MIA again.. hahaha.. going to post wat happen last few days.. went for my class BBQ on wed at pasir ris park.. and the gathering can be say a success ba.. cuz more than half the class turn up la.. have fun catching up with some of the classmate and when it turn late.. many decide to went home.. but some of us have a different idea..

on the other side of pasir ris park.. lie the chalet of costa sand downtown east.. i secretly booked the chalet and invited some of my close frens there.. so after we put up a play for the ppl not going.. we went back to the chalet to have a nite full of fun sia.. on the 2nd day.. we met up with those that went home and came back.. and have dinner play pool and we intend to go bowling at pasir ris bowl.. but it was closed sia.. so freaking sian. so we went back to the room and start inventing game den was play through the nite.. the last two days was really fun for me..

2006-04-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

today was a fun day out sia.. wen to the zoo with yoz ada tom and esther.. meet tom early in the mornin at amk station but when i reached there.. saw someone who look like yoz.. got a nearer look.. it is yoz.. and ada and esther.. hahaha..didnt knew they oso meet at amk..after that.. went to 7-11 bought some stuff and we're on our way to the zoo..

on the bus was so much fun takin pic and toking.. saying how long nv been to the zoo and so on.. so we spend the whole afternoon at the zoo walking about, takin trams ride and watching the hilarious animal show.. and cannot forget the shocked ada got when she took a photo with a huge croc.. hahaha.. after the zoo.. it was around evenin.. and we decided to go to junction coffee bean to chill out.. and we really chilled out there.. cuz the air-con was damn cold sia.. hahaha.. went shopping for a while and we decide to go home le.. but in my heart i was thinking how i wish time would juz stay still and nv move on.. cuz today was a really fun day.. and maybe im startin to miss my class and frens i met in ite..

after all the excitement.. the group went home.. but i cannot.. i have to rush for basketball.. so went home rush this and that.. and zooooom.. im off to bball.. overall played well but one problem.. injured my knee cap and it been troublin mi since last week.. think have to take care liao.. tata..

2006-04-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

so late le.. still have nsleep.. dunno thinking wat..wanna sleep but cannot.. hai..think is physically tired but mentally not.. been out of school for almost a week le.. abit sian without going to school.. later going to gym.. been ages since i go liao lo.. tmk have to workout sia..

nite time got training ar.. dunno wanna go anot le.. abit sian cuz got someone i dun like sia.. damn sarcastic in the team and really is a fucker.. play 'xiao dong zhuo' den wanna injure mi again and again.. with him there really feel sucky when playing bball.. he sux to the core..

saving money for ZARA and SHOPPING WEEK... lol.. ZARA and PEDRO here i come.. lol..

2006-04-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

juz reach home from a fun day out.. went out together with yoz , tom, ada, esther, ayou, jacky and rita.. really was a great day sia.. went to secret recepies for lunch and we really have a great time.. order alot of food sia.. lol..after that went for ice age 2.. damn funny sia.. laugh until the whole cinema was our voice onli.. lol..

den went for dinner at thai express.. so funny sia.. tom pronouncing the food name.. hahahaha.. phat thai talat ar.. lol.. den went bowling and really found some hidden talent sia.. esther getting 2nd for the first round.. wa kao.. really hidden talent sia.. cant wait for the next outing to the zoo. next week.. here i come..

wanna buy zara stuff.. save money time..

2006-03-31T01:31:00.000+08:00

final paper finish le.. and the day where IQR go seperate way.. sad day.. but there will be alot outing now and everyone will be busy workin for that one thing.. money hahaha...

2006-03-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

today my birthday.. happy birthday to me!! happy birthday to me!! happy birthday to me!! happy 20th birthday to me!! hahaha abit bo liao.. lol.. tmk will be my final exam le.. dunno will be hard for me anot.. hope i can do my best for the final exam.. think i go sleep liao.. too tired from training le.. tmk i muz wake up earlier to study.. nite nite..

2006-03-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

been ages since i last updated my blog.. and i gonna be kill if i dun blog as cuz someone pulling my hair.. -ouch- today juz finish my audit final exam and finally over the past few days, i have been working my guts off for today exam.. next stop will be the accounting final exam.. sad thing is tmk is my birthday and i wont be celebrating it.. sad isnt it.. lol.. but it okie.. juz hope that esake will have a better birthday celebration tmk.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESKAE.. after thursday we will be graduating liao le.. will mis the memories we have for the past 2 years.. all the best to IQR in wateva you guys will be doing.. stay in contact okie..

2005-12-24T12:27:00.000+08:00

today is christmas eve and something funny is this yr im not going for any countdown party but i requested to work a longer shift.. lol.. i think that this yr christmas is a meaningless one.. it seem to me that everything in my life is in a mess now.. im not the one i used to be.. slack alot and laziness is getting up onto me liao.. after my last final exam.. my hardworkin side had gone back to sleep liao.. wat is it that i have to do to make myself the way im used to be.. wasnt as fast as i used to be.. wasnt as agile as im used to be.. have to work hard on my life.. bringing back everything back to normal.. later going to work at 3 and today muz work until 11.. so it a full shift and it really a long day if the time passed by so slowly tat even seconds can turn to minute.. and minute can even turn to hours.. it really sux when time isnt by your side.. lol.. come back later den blog.. gotta go prepared for work..

2005-12-20T13:55:00.000+08:00

after so long i finally come back to blogging.. been quite busy with the start of sch and work.. now tat i have start on class 2B license.. wanna hurry finish it and get my own bike.. although not tat ezi.. but at least i have a goal and that wat pushing mi towards a better tmk.. hahaha.. last sem in ITE liao.. have to strive for wateva best result i can get.. but comin up now tat worry mi is the flea market.. hope everything we do can strive for the best profit and assessment.. have to come out with brillant idea and muz work hard for it liao.. think i will blog until here ba..

2005-10-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

it a lousy day.. firstly is my back.. it hurts the moment i woke up ytd and has been hurting until now.. 2nd is today i really veri bored but cannot go out coz cant really walk long distance.. sorry eskae today nv go.. nex time okie.. third is my gf today went out the whole day and i was really feeling left out lo.. the moment the exams over.. i still cannot rest.. coz i have alot of unfinish work to do.. like chalet and a video.. really feel like cancelling the chalet as i heard many ppl wont be staying for the 2nd day.. den in the first place i shouldnt book such a big chalet.. cost quite alot le.. hai.. now all i have to do is to try to make the BBQ nite as fun as possible liao lo.. coz since 2nd day not much pple den no need plan for activities liao lo..

-unappreciated-

2005-10-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

Finally the exams are over.. once again i think i have done pretty well for the exams and wat i can do now is juz hope the the veri best result.. good luck to everyone too..

now that exam are over.. dunno why the mind still remind mi to go study.. hahaha.. think study until crazy liao ba.. hahaha.. now is the time to enjoy.. and finally the chalet is nearing everything seem to be falling into place and i only have to sit back relax and enjoy.. hahaha... this time i hope the chalet wont happen like wat it happen one year back.. hope everyone can enjoy..

GONE FOR HOLIDAY

2005-10-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

Am i unreasonable..? Do i treat my family different from my fren..? think i am not ba.. things aint going smoothly for me this week.. but after this week everything will come to a rest liao.. wont be going to sch and i can go for a long holiday doing my fav. basketball.. hahaha.. think for three days onli.. work as hard as an ox can liao.. have to strive out of my laziness.. have to no matter wat.. no obstacles is bigger than my determination now.. i will do it.. hereby wish everyone in IQR good luck.. come on guys.. let do this for the class.. strive for straight A and do our teachers proud..

2005-10-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

it friday again.. as the day goes by.. i'm one step nearer to the exam.. i will have to finish my revision paper again.. and have to work towards my goal.. nothing going to stop me from reaching my ultimate goal of achieving straight 'A' if possible.. things have pretty come back to me now as i been doing all the paper over and over again.. hope this time round.. i will have good result.. need a GPA of 3.5 at least.. and after the exam.. it the chalet that the class have been waiting for.. have been plannin since may.. it a 5 long months wait sia.. but hope this time round everything will go smoothly..

today went out with tom, assarie, ayou, xiaoling and shuping.. strange combination but have lotsa fun at bugis.. catchin the chipmunks.. hahaha.. now going to be broke liao.. and think going to quit the work at ntuc coz have found another job liao.. hahaha.. think after exam i will go play basketball for the first week.. hahaha.. but first thing first.. NEED NEW JERSEY!!! WHO GOING TO SPONSOR ME AR!!! hahaha.. think have to save money liao.. got alot of thing to buy.. new clothes too.. need to work more liao.. but now most important is MY EXAM!!!

2005-10-02T09:25:00.001+08:00

juz got back my internet service and i realised that my last entry was at 30th August.. it been like about one month plus since i updated it.. so no going to update abit more..

this one month without my com life was pretty lifeless..feel like losin contact with everyone and kinda bored when staying at home.. but it oso give mi time to revise for my work and now i have gone back scoring wat i used to score.. juz 5 more mths and we have to say goodbye liao.. though it sad to say goodbye.. but hope we could always keep in contact.. i have to score for this time exam too.. cannot lose out.. been losing out since yr two start.. so wai and jav.. buckle up and start working hard ba.. if not.. you will lose out to me again.. hehehe..

2005-08-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

hai.. so sian ar.. today went for reviewing for my knee cap.. and the result was.. BAD!!! the doctor told me that i maybe cannot play basketball permanent liao.. my heart dropped upon hearin tat.. he told me if the pain still hasn't gone after three days.. i muz go to take a x-ray to see whether i have fracture my knee cap.. i dun wan to go take x-ray.. everything in life now seem to be going down hill for me liao.. study have gone from bad to worse and now this happen.. wat next tat is going to happen to me.. for once i really sit down and think about wat if i really cannot play basketball or even exercise liao.. it will be veri terrible for me.. hai.. how unlucky can i be.. havin my dream taken away from me.. hai..

2005-08-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

two more days to sch reopen.. and i have been rather busy this week working part-time.. now i'm juz too tired to do the homework.. maybe sleep awhile liao den do ba.. haven even start doing sia.. lol.. so sian ar..

will update more later..

2005-08-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

got reminder by my fren who say my last update was on 6th aug.. woah.. tat pretty long liao.. lol.. almost a week plus till i updated my blog.. so today gonna update abit..

going into holiday liao but i'm not happy sia.. coz after holiday liao iz my ca.. so fast sia.. and i'm slacking by alot.. hahaha.. have to buck up liao.. if not.. really sad to say tat i won't make it one.. this is for sure.. so have to motivate myself to work harder.. lol..

many things in ppl life change and when things changed.. tat nth you can do to make it the same way it use to be.. but if good things happened to you.. i think you will do nothing to change it ba.. lol.. something good happened to me.. having to know this gal for nearly 1 month liao.. and i find tat i have this special feeling for her.. hoping tat she will feel the same way i feel about her.. i find her rather different from other gals i know.. other gals other den shopping.. is still shopping.. ut she has this keen interest in cooking and this is wat gals nowadays hate.. they will complain this and tat sia.. hahaha.. she cute and demure too.. a veri nice gal i got to know from my fren.. will treasure her veri well one ..lol..

think i have blog enough liao lo.. rather late.. going to sleep liao lo.. sayo..

2005-08-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

it been over a week liao since my last entry.. have to update.. lately everyone is so busy with school work.. but to me.. i'm still slacking.. this week i realized that i have be slackin off and i cant seem to be getting back on track sia.. i have 4 days and i have to get back to wat i'm used to be.. i muz be hardworkin liao.. if not.. all my hardwork for the past 13months will go down the drain.. i muz wake up.. i muz and i can.. and i shall be awaken by the end of next week..

finally i got a mp3 player of my own.. planning so long to get one.. now finally got one liao.. lol .. something to be happy for.. so now onli hope for a new hippy bag.. hahaha.. going to bugis to see.. so waiting for the new bag.. been two days without winks liao lo.. now feeling restless liao.. think i have to sleep later.. if not.. die sia...

2005-07-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

it been three days since my last entry.. gotta know my account mark.. was sad to hear tat i got 91%.. didnt expect to get 91% even it was some careless mistake.. now onli left costin paper.. later gonna work on the paper mr G gave.. have to score full for this paper.. if not.. can cry sia.. hahaha..

ytd went out with one of my secondary school fren.. 4 of us plus his gf and another gal.. i have fun ytd although it was quite late when i return home ytd.. but it okie.. coz pple say tat you will have ample rest when you are dead.. hahaha.. so without much sleep today when i went to sch.. i was like a half dead fish.. so restless in class.. and i actually blew my top on my costin teacher.. hahaha.. luckily he nv hear anything sia.. if not.. i will be dead.. lol.. after sch went to get my comics and have lunch.. but when suddenly i get this pain near my abdominal.. it been hurting for the past few days liao.. think have to see doc if it persists..

2005-07-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

today get back our tax ca paper.. i done pretty well.. got 96% overall.. but seriously i not veri happy.. many may think tat so high liao why not happy.. but i think this time.. i have many careless.. those careless mistakes make mi lose my full 100%.. but since it over... ponderin over it ain't my style.. juz gotta move forward.. in life.. many things that we have done.. may leave regret in our life.. but holding on to it doesnt make you happier.. but will make you even more despair.. so move on ahead in life.. we live this life onli once.. and many may think tat.. we're young.. why think about this.. but you will nv know wat is going to happen.. ytd is a past, tmk is a mystery.. tat why today is called the present..

2005-07-24T03:36:00.000+08:00

The time now is 3:36am and it sunday mornin.. everyone in my house is asleep now except me.. my CA are coming.. and hoping to score A for the three module.. taxation CA over liao.. but result are yet to know.. tuesday is accountin CA and 4th Aug is costin.. think not much problem now.. having prepare enough for them.. hopin an A for all three module isn't too much ba.. seel to me tat lately all my frenz are rather busy.. but why am i so carefree.. frenz hardly blog liao and nv leave tag like we used to do.. and the class lately seem to have many problems.. last year liao.. so juz dun fight over small matter okie..

am i trouble by something is the question in my mind now.. i can't seem to make it out.. i should have no problem now but my heart juz like feeling troubled.. strange.. hmmm.. think worrying for the chalet ba.. wat i worry now is little ppl go.. suppose to be a class chalet.. hope at that point of time everything should go smoothly ba..

tmk going to meet my fren to pass him the surveys he ask me to help.. dunno whether i can wake up ma.. hahaha..now i dun feel sleepy at all.. listening to black eyed peas - the apl song.. it a nice song.. recommended to everyone.. so think i stop here.. but b4 i stop.. i wanna to shout out to my two competitors.. the CA is nearing and hope you two are well prepared okie.. you should know who you are.. lol.. this time round.. work harder for straight A.. wai and jav..

2005-07-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

tmk is my tax CA liao.. and seriously saying.. i dun like the teacher teaching mi tax.. maybe it from my point of view ba.. i think she juz bias toward the other class lo.. hate this kind of peeps.. she think i those guys who dun study one.. but i going to prove her wrong.. coz i'll score well for this CA.. to let her see.. i not kidding when it come to studying.. so gotta go back study liao.. adios..

2005-07-13T10:45:00.000+08:00

So sian sia.. fallen sick again.. have no choice but to go see doctor coz need to produce MC.. this time round.. the doctor gave me a bunch of medication and advise me to finish all.. so much sia.. think for two week i onli take med for breakfast lunch and dinner can liao.. hahaha.. why sick i oso dunno le.. maybe last nite sleep very late ba den stress.. den sick hahaha.. think i later have to work on my account liao.. if not.. i will be lagging behind liao.. gtg work harder this term.. but always say.. like li bu cong xin.. lol.. muz sit down and think liao.. but ytd when toking on the phone with my fren.. i felt tat when i tok to her.. i feel veri relax and not so stress lo.. maybe toking to her ease the stress on me.. hahaha.. so next time if got chance.. den tok to her again.. lol...

2005-07-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

For many days.. i nv come in blog liao.. dunno wat happened to me oso.. so now i'm in to blog.. have started another video making for the class.. hope tat his time round will do a better job.. b4 i was bloggin.. i sat up at my com.. with a sudden feeling of lost juz gushed onto me.. like suddenly i feel so lost.. in the middle of nowhere.. so scary sia.. but think i should be fine now ba.. later going to do homework.. so tired but have to pia for this term.. until now.. not much of a problem in costing and tax.. but accounting got a minor glitch.. but think can make it ba..

2005-07-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

How do I change?
If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions.

2005-07-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. today went back to sch.. thought was going to be late.. but who know tat my class advisior did no come to class today.. for dunno wat reason.. she nv turn up in sch.. maybe attendin her courese or wat ba.. but got work to do.. the question was simple.. but when i do it.. i found out tat the question was really long lo.. long until i do until wanna sleep ar.. hahaha.. den got two hour break.. so mi and some of my fren went to the nearby swimming complex to take a dip in the hot afternoon sun.. was fun.. but kan suan until some how i cannot tahan.. but luckily i nv blew my top like wat i will to do if i was to be like last time.. lol.. this time round.. take it as a joke.. but even the calmest person has an endurance limit.. think lately many thing had stress me.. but wat are stressing me.. i really dunno.. maybe muz find ppl come tok tok liao..

wat will my tmk be like.. izzit gonna be like heaven or another round of hell.. did i really changed or am i juz deceiving myself.. really need help.. haiz..

sheryl until now haven recovered.. see her today moody sia.. like so tired.. hahaha.. hope she recovered.. hey dun misunderstand tat i like her.. hahaha.. concern her as a fren.. or should say.. as a younger sis ba.. hahaha.. so wai mei mei.. hahaha.. get well soon.. lol..

find this quote meaningful.. so decide to out here..
"There's a miracle of friendship that dwells within the heart
And you don't know how it happens or where it gets its start
But the happiness it brings you always gives a special lift
Any you realize that friendship
Is God's most perfect gift."

2005-07-03T15:41:00.000+08:00

So fast sunday already liao.. tmk gotta go sch again.. abit sian le.. haiz.. dunno why.. my whole back hurt le.. started when i got the cold on thurs.. now tat my cold had recovered but the back pain doesnt seem to be recovering but it juz keep hurting like hell.. so freaking uncomfortable.. it felt like needle poking my back sia.. sian sian sian.. maybe muz rest more ba.. think i have to recovered not juz physically.. but mentally as well.. went for bball on fri.. but wasnt feeling well or something.. coz cannot seem to concentrate and head keep spinning.. and tat day i accidently fell on my fren.. but she took it as i done it on purpose.. hai.. wat to do.. all along i have play aggressive bball.. so she took it the wrong way ba..

came across someone blog saying tat i have treated him invisible in sch.. i dun deny it.. but seriouly saying it was that person himself who started it first.. i wasnt those type of person who bears grudges.. but somehow i cant stand him ba.. he was the one who dun reply ppl when ppl ask him about question.. he was the one who purposely dun ans ppl one.. now he the one who say i treated him invisible.. if i treated him invisible i will not reply him in msn regarding anything he have asked.. really lo.. somemore say he got no choice but to tok behind my back.. kaoz.. but all this i really dun take into heart lo.. one who dun realise his wrong doing in the past has no right of accusing ppl of doing the same thing tat he has done to others..

thinking about wat i have done wrong really make mi learn alot from the past.. so i think learning from your mistakes can earn you a great deal of knowledge and if you will to make tat mistakes again.. think tat you have no learn enough from it ba.. haha..

gonna take a rest now.. back huritng again.. haiz.. ciaox... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... .. .

2005-06-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

After a long week of school.. finally i have fallen.. hahaha.. not dead.. but half dead.. hahaha.. i'm sick liao.. have been stressing myself lately.. due to not enough rest.. finally my body cannot take it and today after S&W think kana cold liao.. now whole bodyache and blocked nose.. head so heavy and why i not in bed resting le.. hahaha.. coz cannot sleep lo.. maybe too many things to worry about liao.. cannot find anyone to share.. hahaha.. haven see doctor yet.. think wait until tmk den see how ba.. think will get better and better and better one.. hahaha..

this week almost over and most of the days got alot of homework sia.. last term no homework one le.. so sian.. but got homeowork oso good la.. prevent me from thinking too much.. at least got things to do.. if not.. oso slack whole day.. more sian sia.. lol..

a new term have started and ytd got a wake up shout out by wai ling on msn.. hahaha.. coz i have been slacking or should i say lazing around.. so wai thanks ar.. for waking me up.. so now you got no chance in winning me liao lo.. hahaha.. so work double hard this term.. okie.. and you two bro.. work harder.. and dun slack in class or sleep hor.. if not.. i will go knock your head when you are sleeping.. lol..

my body cannot tahan anymore liao.. den gonna collapse any moment.. lucky tmk start at 9.. gonna rest this tiresome body to get ready for tmk basketball..

2005-06-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

Going off soon.. so come in here blog awhile den off to do my homework liao lo.. have a bz day today.. busy with my house chores.. hahaha.. strange hor.. me do house chores.. hahaha.. den clean my own room change bedsheet and stuff.. hahaha.. after tat.. watch shaman king.. veri nice sia.. lol.. today i realize sth from reading one of my fren blog.. hahaha.. felt happy for my fren.. hahaha.. who tat.. it a secret.. after one straight hour of extreme workout.. i now sweating like hell sia.. hahaha.. finally can feel my stamina coming back liao.. and now i can run more liao.. oso wont so easily feel tired.. going to train more.. have to get back my usual standard.. i muz..

and my busted knee seem to be getting better liao.. hope it wont hurt anymore ba..

2005-06-24T15:21:00.000+08:00

So many days nv come in blogl iao.. now finally got mood.. hahaha.. later going for training.. it will take me the whole day ba.. going at 3.30pm until 10pm tonight.. straight 6hrs plus.. gonna make up for those days tat i nv go for training.. so muz train on my own.. going to my fren house there to play.. den later at night.. go to tcc to pllay with my fren.. one week one time.. very little sia.. today gonna enjoy if not.. weekend got homework to pia.. abit sian le.. hahaha..

2005-06-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

Today i realize tat i may be reverting back to my old ways liao ba.. i dun wish to go back to the old me.. it really sux.. i hate my old self.. or am i juz thining too much again.. so i think onli my fren can tell mi the truth le ba.. so if anyone reading this up.. please tag my board to let mi know okie.. haiz..

now listening to final fantasy VIII theme song.. listening to this really bring back memories.. hahaha.. and those were good memories sia.. hahaha.. and things in the 2nd yr are going well for me.. coz the module are all easy to understand ba for now la.. lol.. think in the future wont be easy ba.. but i cannot let this bring me down.. i muz do even well this term.. coz i know it is easy to score since onli got three modules.. so can be more focus.. lol..

one piece of good news.. the response from the class about the chalet is overwhelming.. and we are glad that everyone is interested.. hahaha.. izzit coz no need to pay.. hehehe.. so any further detail will be announce to the class once the decision are made.. hope tat the chalet will come soon.. coz it really making everyone excited juz by thinking about it..

2005-06-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

First day of sch was great.. get to see all my classmates again.. hahaha.. but when i got home.. was feeling abit restless.. coz nv sleep enough ba.. now juz woke up from afternoon nap.. abit late.. eating my dinner den go bathe again.. den go back to sleep liao.. hahahaha.. tmk start at 10 plus..abit happy coz can sleep late.. but end at 5plus.. wa liew.. time table so long sia.. coz we this term onli got three module le.. two hour two hurs.. sian sian sian sian sian sian..hahaha.. going to bathe liao.. den after that.. back to dreamland..

2005-06-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

Tmk start sch liao lo.. abit excited yet sian.. coz muz wake up early.. and really veri early.. hahaha.. tmk is the start of my 2nd yr in ITE BISHAN... hope this yr time-table can lax lax one.. haha.. gotta go sleep liao..

2005-06-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

wake up after a veri long sleep.. really feel tired but cannot sleep anymore.. have to feed my stomach liao.. if not.. gastric acting up again.. hahaha.. so muz eat alot.. coz i've been hibernating since morning until now.. tat over 12 hr of sleep liao lo.. need to get back to my usual time of sleeping.. coz school starting in two days time.. abit excited in going back.. but thinkin of waking up early in the morning.. juz feel wa liew.. so freakin hell.. hahaha..

chalet plan have been going according to plan liao.. many thing have been decided liao.. and wat now is to wait until the time come for us to enjoy lo.. althought thinking tat particular person got go hor.. i juz can't help feelin like my excitment has been killed the moment i see him.. so hope until den.. he dun give mi any trouble until i have to throw him out of the chalet.. hahaha..

2005-06-18T08:16:00.000+08:00

Finally after a few days of bzing.. now i got the mood to blog.. but oso not blogging long.. juz reach home from my overnight majong session at my fren house.. now veri tired.. hahaha.. and javier has come back liao.. welcome back bro.. lol.. but i think i blog later ba.. veri tired.. now eyes closing liao.. hahaha.. so muz rest.. if not.. pimple will burst out again.. hahaha..

2005-06-16T03:14:00.000+08:00

It late but i'm not in bed.. can't sleep.. havin difficulty in sleeping early this few days.. but if this continue.. i wont be able to wake up for sch when sch start.. haiz.. dunno why.. my feeling now is both excited and sian at the same time.. new term new challenges ba.. but have to wake up early.. and thinkin tat this is my last year liao.. after this yr.. everyone will go their own separate ways.. haiz.. so last chances for bonding lies in the chalet liao.. but there always one person i hate so much.. but no choice.. have to invite tat person to go.. sian 1/2.. coz this is for the class.. i have to do my part as a co-ordinator.. if not ppl will say i gong bao si cou.. but juz dun wan to see tat person sia.. mention his name will make mi wanna puke sia.. juz imagine tat always long horse face of tat person.. OMG!!!

later hopefully can wake up and go play bball.. if not.. no chance liao le.. when sch start.. think no time ba.. coz i've think through liao.. muz really sit down and study liao.. cannot always be so diao er lang tang.. muz really study hard for this last year liao..

cannot believe tat i have thought through my future and know wat i really wan to do with it.. i believe tat wat future you have is wat you do now.. for everything that happen.. behind it muz have a reason.. so wat i do now will affect on my future.. going to try sleep again.. see whether can sleep ma.. life sad without dreams.. so dare to dream..

2005-06-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

Today sleep until 2.30pm den wake up.. dun feel like waking up early.. actually wanna go play bball alone one.. but morning no mood liao.. so might as well sleep until late.. hahaha.. think thurs den go ba.. so today and tmk rest.. hahaha.. ytd out of a sudden i got this quote in my mind..

Quote: "An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind."

veri meaningful ba.. tat is if you understand lo.. hahaha.. ytd result came out liao.. some were happy some were sad.. but wateva the outcome is.. i think everyone have done their bez liao.. for those who did not did well.. juz bear in mind.. work harder next time ba.. so now waiting for sch to start.. cant wait to see wat waitin for me when sch start.. and wai dun everytime so eager to win mi.. hahaha.. there were times you oso win mi ma.. so try harder okie..

2005-06-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

Today result out liao.. and the moment i checked my result. i was jumping up and down my room.. hahahaha.. but b4 tat.. i was like so scare i will fail or did not do up to my expectation.. hahaha.. so this time round i did sightly better den last term.. and my gpa went up by 0.5.. althought not much.. but at least got improve..

Intermediate Accounting - B
Banking and Finance - A
Communication for Business - B
Info Technology - A
GPA - 3.176

hahaha.. this are my result.. not bad la.. quite satisfy with myself for this term.. and did't expect myself to get a B for CB.. coz i make alot of mistakes when doing the paper.. hahaha.. now can really take a breather and relax until the next term start.. which is in a week time.. sian sian sian..

today was normal as i spent my whole day at home slacking.. hahahaha.. but thing do happen and i think ignoring it is the best way to deal with it.. hahaha..

2005-06-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

Izzit everything i do always the wrong thing.. even when it not my fault i have to suffer in silence.. i cannot express my anger out.. wat is really happening to me.. am i doing good to myself when i'm actually holding back my anger.. by expressing my anger out will only cause many other thing to happen.. and i dun wan tat kind of conculsion.. i need to stay in control.. so is suffering in silence the only way out or are there any other means of escape from anger.. but if i dun expressed my anger out.. i'm gonna crack.. can't i have any dreams without it being broken by you.. can't i have my ideas without you saying they are stupid.. can't i have anything without you being such a fucker.. izzit tat everything i do really a pain in your ass.. sometime i really cannot take it.. can't i express my point of view without getting scolded.. izzit tat difficult to listen to ppl point of view b4 you interrupting..

sometime i really cannot take it.. but all i can do is to keep quiet.. wat i'm feeling now is like an erupting volcano but without an opening on top.. coz of this.. i think wheneva i have anger inside me.. i have to make out quote liao.. below is a quote tat juz came out of nowhere when i writing this blog.. so think it have some meaning in it.. if you guys undertand.. and from this.. i know wat i should do wheneva i angry.. hahahaha..

Quote : "Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harms we do, we do to ourselves."

2005-06-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

thinking through many thing today.. looking for answers.. and finally i think i've found mine.. hahaha.. think i understand something liao lo.. so maybe juz let go is the best thing to do.. i dunno whether i can do it anot.. but if i dun try i would know the answer..

2005-06-11T16:56:00.000+08:00

Finsih house chores and adjusting the monitor to suit my preference liao.. feeling so great now.. finally got back my com to use liao.. and thanks to my frenz and my sista.. for their com.. hahaha.. great to have fren to count on when you are in need..

ytd went to kbox.. it was fun.. hahaha.. althought my voice no so good.. think veri bad ba.. hahaha.. heard afew songs i liked.. but today when i wan to dl.. i forget the tittle.. so sian sia.. but ytd really good.. heard eskae voice so nice sia.. and yan zhen oso sang veri well.. but she sing until she nearly lost her voice le.. hehehe.. muz take care of your voice le.. and not forgetting tom,wai and xiaoling.. hahaha.. they are all veri good singer.. nice voice.. so envy them.. hahaha.. so wai.. ytd got sing your heart out ma.. see you so sian ytd.. thought you longed to sing meh.. hehehe..

2005-06-11T14:47:00.000+08:00

Finally.. i'm back to operational liao.. juz change my monitor.. last to weeks is a torture to mi.. coz got no com to use and now.. finally.. got a new monitor.. hahaha.. now.. muz update my song liao.. muz go dl new song liao.. hahaha.. blog later..

2005-06-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

after haircut.. it really sux.. my hair so short liao.. think it pretty hard to style liao lo.. sian lo.. hahaha.. later going to play bball.. but after much serious consideration.. i think later cannot push myself to limit.. due to my busted knee.. so have to take care of it.. if not.. life-long permenant no more bball for mi liao..

tmk going to kbox liao.. hahaha.. can't wait.. think will be fun with eskae and gang ba.. hey wai.. dun be so sensitive la.. those words i mention not saying you la.. is someone else.. hahaha.. i where got guts say you.. hahaha.. and so fierce.. say liao mean findin death ma.. hahahaha.. opps.. juz kidding ar.. you veri nice one ar.. hahahaha..

becoz of me.. i put you down into the water man.. so sorry jav.. but i think that person is a gal ba.. or izzit a guy.. but i think mostly is a gal ba.. the engish damn power sia.. hahaha.. so dun ponder over it liao.. time will reveal the person and everything will be as clear as the clear blue sky.. hahaha.. gtg bball liao.. if not.. later again.. hahaha.. cya tmk..

2005-06-09T07:16:00.000+08:00

cant believe i so early wake up today.. hahaha.. but gotta get home liao.. so no choice muz wake up early liao.. still sleepy.. but think later reach home sleep awhile ba.. den off the bugis to cut my hair..

dunno when den can come in blog again.. hope my new monitor come soon..

2005-06-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

This week really is not a good week for me.. as.. firstly.. my busted knee injury hurt again.. and it really sux to feel the pain and agony.. it really hurt like hell.. is my knee protesting tat i too long nv play bball liao ma.. hahaha.. but later today.. i will be playing bball again after a long break of 1 mth plus from my exam.. so hope i haven lose my usual standard.. 2nd.. is that my com still haven recover.. my monitor.. without it.. no computer using for mi.. it sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian for mi this week.. really bored at home lo.. nothing to do.. but luckily still can go out .. but cannot spend too much money.. have to save up money liao.. if not.. broke ar.. and i wanna buy my stuffs.. new shoes, new clothes, and a new bag.. lol..

looking forward to friday outing.. going to celebrate yawei birthday in advance ba.. so we going to KBOX.. hahaha.. wai.. you longed to go kbox hor.. now you can go and sing your heart out liao lo.. so think tat day goona have fun.. a one more thing.. going to kbox doesnt mean you are veri rich hor.. hahaha..

as the chalet co-ordinator liao.. many thing on the chalet have been decide liao.. wat left are the date of booking and reply from the class.. so peeps.. hurry and give mi a reply whether you interested anot.. sadly speaking.. javier my man.. you are the sole organiser liao.. coz i'm now the co-ordinator.. and you and QH will have a different plan on the 2nd day.. lol..

hahaha.. today gonna blog until veri long ba.. later going to have a haircut.. but dunno wat hairstyle will my stylist cut again.. i think i onli going to cut trim my hair ba.. coz i like the style now.. easy to style.. lol.. behind really veri long to muz cut away.. bye bye my hair.. sob sob.. lol..

2005-06-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

early in the morning kana awaken by my family dunno rushing out to where.. so noisy until i cannot sleep.. so have to have an early start today.. life really veri dull when i dun have my own computer to use.. it sux le.. really sux lo.. many great things have been revolving around me lately and my life gotten abit colour since den.. not saying my life is full of black and white la.. it juz tat in certain period of one's life there are time where one feel greyed.. but life not so greyed when you can count on your frenz to cheer you up..

as ppl will say.. old one dun go new one wont come.. but wat if it the one tat leave leaves a deep impression on your heart and your heart wont forget that particular one easily.. should you give up or hold on.. it one hell tough of a question.. it really easier say den done.. wat past is the past.. it cannot be undone and learning from my mistakes is the onli way i can change soemthing in my life.. to you if you are reading this.. i juz wanna let you know tat.. in my heart.. you will always have a place in my heart and remember this tat.. the place will never be replaced..

2005-06-05T22:25:00.001+08:00

phew.. finally finish with this skin changing liao.. juz by changing the setting takes a hard time.. life dull without my precious computer.. using my sister is no bad.. but tends to get laggy at times le.. hahaha.. but life not dull when you are having fun with your frenz.. going out to shop isn't stuff us guys will do but.. it our job to accompany ladies to do shopping.. hahaha.. and oso can do our own window shopping.. i wan to buy alot of things now.. adidas shoes, mp3 player etc etc.. so i muz save more money liao.. cannot be a spendthrift liao.. got lot of thing to plan and can't wait for school to start.. and get my new LCD monitor..

2005-05-31T14:23:00.000+08:00

Really damn unlucky sia.. my monitor spoil and now i cannot use my com anymore until i get a new monitor.. and that gonna take a long time le.. sian sian sian sian sian sibei sian le.. no choice but to come use my sister com now for awhile..gonna save up money for chalet and a new monitor.. think i will get the monitor first ba.. so guys if you are findin mi now.. sms to my phone if you need anything from mi.. althought without my com i cannot do much.. but i will try my bez to help you.. hahaha..

now holiday.. so sian oso.. everyday sleep eat.. use to play games but com cannot use liao.. so onli eat and sleep and eat and sleep... haha.. chalet is confirm liao.. it will be held at aranda country club and it will be a 3 days 2 night chalet.. date is from 7th - 11th Nov [any 3 days in between].. so anyone reading this up.. can confirm with us tat you are coming anot..

this few week of fun i have with tom and gangs are great.. guys any outing can call mi okie.. i wanna go chip hahaha.. but sad tosae.. yoz fell sick and all of us are shocked to hear that he was admitted into hospital on his bday.. but the good news is tat he fine now and is recurprating at home.. thake care there big guy..

2005-05-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

wa.. today was sleeping the whole day except in the afternoon only.. hahaha.. ytd was fun when i went out with amanda and tom.. hahaha.. so fun... cant wait for the nex time.. hahaha..

2005-05-25T22:41:00.000+08:00

today was fun!!!... went out with tom ferroz amanda javier and amanda frenz.. went to play pooll.. lon time nv play liao.. so shiok ar.. den after tat.. went shopping to at suntec.. chill out at the coffee bean there.. and amanda her sencondary sch fren.. name nancy ar.. hahaha.. then went arcade liao.. after tat le.. go home.. have a great chat with everyone today.. feel so good..

thanks guys.. if you are reading this.. love to hang and chill out with you guys.. so nex time go chips okie tom.. hahaha.. happy holidays to the class IQE and everyone.. so enjoys the holi.. coz we deserve it.. hahaha..

now everything in my life seem to get better and better and i wan it to stay tat way.. but there onli one thing tat hasn't happened.. if i would have a chance to love her once more.. i think my life is complete for now.. hahaha.. think onli fate know wat lies in my path of life.. so fate.. dun you torture me ar..

today exam is chicken feet sia.. i pity the gal from IQB sitting beside mi.. so stress out sia she.. when she saw me lying down and SLEEP after 15min... after the start of the paper.. hahaha.. it easy and hope to get an A for banking.. i can do it one.. serious top scorer for few time liao.. this time oso same... hahaha...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS....

2005-05-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

Juz came back home after the long day at sentosa.. went sun tannign with my frenz.. morning wake up see the sun smiling at mi.. so good weather sia.. got tanned.. hahaha.. wailing go get tanned ba.. but muz choose good day la.. if not.. no sun go oso like nv go.. waste time.. hahahaha..

gtg sleep liao.. sian liao.. tmk study again..

2005-05-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

Four chapter down.. left three more.. one day can onli revised four chapter is pretty good for mi now.. 2nd time revising the banking and feel like everything juz repeats itself infront of me.. feel like a movie.. lol.. hope to score well this final paper.. and win my two most powerful competitors.. and they are none other den.. javier my bro and sheryl(wailing) hahaha.. the all time top scorer contender.. hahaha.. hey you two.. i wont shou xia liu qing one hor.. so dun expect mi to be merciful.. wahahahahha.. abit evil aint..?? lol..

later going suntanning with my lao peng you and xiao mei.. wailing when you going for suntanning again.. hahaha.. muz tanned.. if not.. not pretty liao.. hahahaha.. juz kidding..

thing happened and pass over after some time.. but memories of those thing whether it good or bad.. will always remained in our heart.. for good ones.. we may always think of it.. but somehow.. sometime regreting it at the same time.. so no matter wat.. cherish wat you have now.. dun wait till you lose it den you start regreting.. the experience of regreting is painful and devastating.. losing someone i once loved.. is painful.. but seeing her getting happiness is all i care about now.. no matter wat.. you are the one i once loved the most.. even though i regret on wat my attitude has done back den.. so now i cannot do anything but to give my blessing for your happiness.. it may sound stupid but it the most sincere feelings from the bottom of my heart..

looking forward to the chalet this nov holidays.. it will be the first chalet tat i'm opening for the class.. so hope everything goes as planned.. and hope everyone will be sporty enough to play at the chalet game.. thinking about it juz make mi excited.. how i wish tat i could control time.. going back in time to undo the pain that i 've cause you and make time go faster so the chalet can come sooner.. but it juz cannot be done.. so i 've to let it be a fraction of my imagination.. hahaha..

2005-05-22T02:47:00.000+08:00

everynight so late den sleep.. abit sian le.. haiz.. am i really giving up in wat i believe in.. i think so ba.. coz continue in believing it will have no destination anymore.. though i will be sad.. but i think the rain will pass and the sun will come out again..

last paper.. work harder.. need an A.. need to win.. cannot lose.. lol..

2005-05-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

practically is slept the whole day.. wake up at 12 this mornin and had a lunch.. and went back to sleep at 2.. slept until 9 wake up.. wa.. really feelin refreshed after the stress of account paper.. but now it over.. wat left is banking.. and can say tat i not scare of the paper lo.. manage to score full marks at CA2 so now i will be striving for a Strong A for banking.. wining everyone is my goal.. but not resortin to underhand method.. hey.. wat am i saying.. lol..

for the baning students.. IQE and IQB.. let fight for the bez result.. and many of my frenz and competitors like javier and sheryl.. work harder for the last paper ba.. and try to win me.. hahaha..

2005-05-20T12:28:00.000+08:00

Ytd finish my acc paper.. feeling so free now.. coz no more worries for the main module paper liao.. but next year got new elective.. dunno which one to choose.. sian..

ytd nite went out to find eskae to accompany her go yan zhen house see her and pass her books.. so glad tat she well and will be returning to school for the banking paper.. after tat.. follow eskae to find our classmates.. - feeroz, tom, amanda, esther and xiaoling.. went to yo frenz pub have so relaxing time.. really enjoy ytd.. fnially i dare to tok to them again liao.. lol.. dunno why i scare in the first place ba.. thanks guys..

everything in life happened for a reason.. even though i have to go through life most painful challenges.. i will still walk down the road of life into the field of hope.. now my life is full of excitement and i wan it to be tat way even when i'm old liao....

2005-05-17T17:36:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!! so fed up with a F**KIN ASSHOLE AR!!!!! if you dun willing to help ppl rite.. next time you dun ask help from anyone la.. think you veri li hai ar.. like shit ar... remember this.. next time dun ever ask me for help.. coz if you does.. i will give you four words.. that is.. FUCKED OFF YOU ASS!!!!

hahahahahaha... but gettin fed up with this kind of fucker is wasting my time.. nex time it will be my turn.. hahaha.. dun forget tat one time you will need ppl help.. so if ppl need assistance pls help them coz you may not know when you need their help.. abit chim la hor.. but thing ppl out there will understand this except for a poor english ah pek.. hahahahahahaha...

javier.. i think i going to ban one person from the plan liao.. and you will not like it.. but many will agreed ba i think.. so tag my board once you read this..

2005-05-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

veri happy now.. hey jav my man.. think the thing we planing is going on smoothly ba.. lol.. wat we need now i to confirm more pple to be interested can liao.. lol.. cant wait till den.. but still a long way.. hahaha...

2005-05-16T19:56:00.000+08:00

today finish my first paper liao.. deel abit relaxed now though not veri sure of the paper.. but will pass la hor.. lol.. hope can get a weak B i oso happy hahaha.. at least B.. dun wan D can liao.. lol..

Thur is acc paper.. so for this three days.. muz work triple hard liao.. juz for this three days.. hey bro you oso muz do well le.. not forgetting wailing too.. muz pass with fei cai yan se(flying colour) lol..

STRVING FOR THE BEZ RESULT LIAO.. GOING TO PIA LIAO.. lol..

2005-05-15T18:42:00.000+08:00

juz usin the free time to come online blog blog abit.. lol.. now is relax time and have finish my revision on communication for business.. the four letter and two notice of meetin.. hope tmk paper is simple and not so complex.. if not.. will have a hard time.. later goin to play awhile ps2 to relax my mind.. den continue on revising CB.. lol.. muz do more revison so can get good grade..

after tmk paper.. account paper will be nex.. i think i afraid of failing that paper.. so have to work double hard liao.. no time to blabber now.. muz play game liao den go study liao..

every hour every minute every seconds, all tat is in my mind is you..
wanting to let you know how i feel, really gonna take alot of courage..
but wat lies in the future for you and me..
onli fate will lead us to our destiny..

2005-05-15T11:35:00.000+08:00

grumpy mornin ar... ppl comin into my room asking me whether going to chalet ma.. havin exam how to go.. siao ar.. lol.. juz woke up not long and started my day with abit music.. and downloading of new song on perfect ten.. lol.. later gonna study abit on acc and start on memorisin the format of letter for CB.. tmk exam liao.. so hope everyone is fully prepare and strive for their result.. GOOD LUCK IQE.. DUN LET OTHER TEACHER LOOK DOWN ON US...

2005-05-14T16:39:00.000+08:00

Bankin & Finance got 7 chapters and guess wat.. i got them all revised.. lol..(hey wai and jav.. try to beat me now.. hehehe..) now i need to work on the account liao.. strivin for straight "A" man.. not havin enough sleep lately.. mi now look like panda sia.. lol.. my brain still have alot of space for account and CB thought sometimes it tend to get laggy due to lack of shutting down(sleep).. OMG mi now like wailing liao.. lagging brain.. hahaha.. fighting on until my body reach it maximum extend.. till den.. i will kepp revisin on my exam and no bball for me for two weeks.. so sian ar..

2005-05-13T03:04:00.000+08:00

NOVO Trading completed liao... so man zu sia.. hahaha.. can balance the acc.. so sad.. ytd is the last day of sch.. and i kinda misses the class liao.. and it may sound gayish but guy oso have feeling one ma.. alot happen this term.. some have left us liao but dun worry.. we will remember the good time in class we have.. the memories tat left behind in us.. and i will not forget to invite you guy to wat we are planing for the class this december holi.. abit think too far liao ba.. lol.. guess onli time will reveal wat we're planin ahead for the class ba..

left 3 days.. gonna miss you this holi.. haiz.. thing are troubling mi now and how i wish thing would juz go back to wat it use to be.. but think i have to fight for it this time.. i won't xiang ming yun di tou de.. lol..

later dunno going to play bball anot.. frenz nv confirm with mi juz now le.. said see he tmk can wake up anot.. if nv play i oso got thing to do.. which is to revise for my exam..

lastly this is for the Wailing and Javier : Hey you two.. tagging each other board ar.. dun forget mi le.. this top scorer for banking.. let us compete for the bez result for the coming exam.. and wai.. hope your memory dun lag le.. pentium one.. opps.. and javier.. let strive for account too.. strive for the bez ya.. and good luck to the class and both of you..

2005-05-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

Finally finish zhen project liao.. abit tired now.. haven done any revision.. so think tmk muz start liao.. if not.. exam sure die ar.. lol..

Contributors to Yan Zhen project are: Wailing for helping mi search certain webby.. and Esake for starting the project and handing it to me for editing..

now i feel like whole body shattered sia.. so soft feel like sleeping again.. lol.. tmk gonna be the last day of sch.. gonna miss the class and hope during the december holidays.. wat i intending to plan will go on smoothly for us..

left 4 days to see you onli and after tat we are off into our holidays.. so sad.. but still will get to chat online..

2005-05-11T14:44:00.001+08:00

For three days nv blog liao.. so today come in to add some new entry.. so bz for the pass three days and get tired so easliy.. lazy to play bball but still have to go coz they dun have ball.. so sian le..

this week is revision week liao.. next week going to have exam liao and i now still haven revise finish.. dunno how to die liao lo.. lol.. think have to work harder liao lo.. if not.. haiz.. everyday keep on missing the first lesson and go like nv go sia.. nv learn anything.. and have to put up with a guy tat think he is always rite.. giving ppl his f**king face like i owe it to him one sia.. need my help act until so good... dun need my help le.. i ask him thing ar.. cannot one le.. so ah pek sia.. lol..

think for her.. i muz wait liao.. wait until my exam are finished den can see how lo.. keep worrying oso no use.. but nowadays see you like so happy.. and i'm glad tat you are getting happier day by day.. so stay tat way gal..

2005-05-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

Cannot sleep again.. sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian.. later going to practice bball at lao di fang.. and guess wat.. it not at tcc.. think later really muz take the self trainin seriously liao.. wound at my shoulder starting to heal and though it still looks abit gross but acn see it recoverin fast ba..

wanna tell that you tat i wan to be with you.. but sth holding me back.. dunno whether it good to hold back or not.. i dun wan to regret my whole life.. but sometime thing in life.. you dun do you regret.. and when you done it.. you oso regret.. abit zuo you wei nan le.. telling you or not i think i juz have to ting tian you ming le.. but seriously deep down in my heart.. i wish tat you will know wo yi ran hai ai zhe ni de.. [msg. for a particular special one]

think i gtg sleep liao ba.. if not.. tmk sure cannot wake up one.. den meet my fren will late again.. lol..

2005-05-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

Today found a new software for dling songs and videos.. it was great man.. fast transfering speed and is easy to use.. downloaded many songs and now juz enjoying it.. though cannot find newest song but still happy..

today have quite a day doing my acc work.. some thing still dunno.. so monday muz go sch learn liao.. hope everything goes well for me during the exam..

2005-05-06T13:49:00.000+08:00

Today late for class again.. hahaha.. think actually wont late one.. coz i slowly walk den miss the bus.. so meet up with javier.. den go sch together.. at IT lesson was so much fun.. peeking at the result slip on teacher hand.. lol.. found out i got an A+++ after adding the paypal function.. really spend a long time to convince Tang sia.. but think it worth it.. many other have As too.. afew Bs and two Cs..

[She look so beautiful and sweet.. wanna make her mine.. but think onli time can tell wat lies ahead for me and her..]

2005-05-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

So sian ar.. IT project finished liao.. but still got to redo my Communication for Business Presetation.. abit lost at the moment.. dun have any ideas to start my new presetation.. mind not working well lately.. today test ws abit corked up man.. maybe will have to let others have the chance to top the class liao ba..wat izzit no one at home understand my pressure in sch.. not doing my project doesn't mean i playing com all day ma.. and hungry oso cannot go buy food.. wa liew.. where got reason so stupid say everytime eat.. no wonder no money.. haiz.. hungry muz eat ma.. if not.. gastric again.. waste more money.. hate it man..

Today got to thanks many of my frenz for helpin mi but guys.. i think i need time to sort out thing inside.. lol.. so juz have to wait.. many thing happening and i juz not getting any ideas on my surrounding.. Exams are round the corner liao.. so muz buckle up if i wanna score well..maybe thing will get better once exam are over.. or will it..?

2005-05-05T17:29:00.000+08:00

Finally figure out the problem with my blog liao.. hope nothing going come up again.. abit tired juz by looking at those small code in HTML format.. making my eyes veri blur now..

Haiz.. today at sch abit restless le.. dunno why tat she juz keep appearing in my mind and thing are really getting complicated now.. can i still believe in fate or it juz tat i'm thinking too much.. haiz..

2005-05-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

Finally finish revising my Banking and Finance liao.. took me quite a long time man.. feeling tired and sleepy now.. think going to sleep soon.. tmk morning muz wake up early revise again.. lol.. veri hardworking one le me.. lol..

today wailing's 19th bur'day.. nv get her any present.. abit guilty le.. but try to make up to her nex yr ba.. lol.. going to wish her a happy 19th bur'day and may her future dream come true.. Later going to have test.. so muz try to top the class as promise to mr sim.. hope every i spot come out later.. hahaha.. if not.. sure die ar..

[Thinkin of a particular person who nv seem to leave my mind.. and tat particular special one is you..]

2005-05-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

Awaken by the bell of AMK secondary school.. feel so refreshed and so shiok ar.. finally got back my energy and concentration.. slept for 4 solid whole hours without any disturbance.. tat juz wat i needed after such spending a long time on my project and presentation.. later i have to revise on my banking and finance progress test.. hoping to top the class again.. gotta go study liao..

2005-05-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

Today we lost again.. haiz.. dunno when will my skill improved.. how to improve when my heart not into it.. i need to improve.. i need to train more.. more den my body can take it.. even it take the last ounce of my energy.. i willing to try my best in improving my skill..

Thrusday having my banking progress test again.. today teacher told me tat he looking forward to seeing me getting top of the class again.. haiz.. getting top of the class seem so hard when there are competitors like javier and wailing.. hahaha.. but no matter wat.. i will stop at nothing to score my best in this module..

Heart cannot take it anymore liao.. it hurt wheneva i see you sad.. although it been a long time.. but the feeling for you doesn't seem to be fading away.. no matter wat.. you are still the one.. i love..

2005-05-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

Juz feelin abit tired and restless after today pe.. wish time would juz stop now.. so i can have a rest before my match.. today no matter wat.. muz win.. but today not feelin well le and stamina still not yet recuperate le.. how to play and chiong with you guys.. abit pressurised le.. now i juz feeling like sleepin.. but cannot le.. abit nervous on the upcoming match.. will i perform well today ma..? if today lose again.. i dunno how i'm going to face the team again.. hope i juz perform as well as i perform b4 my injury..

2005-05-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

Jux reach home from private trainin and feel beat now.. but today went to play bball with my fren kang kang.. lol.. and have alot fun catching up.. and kang dun forget the chalet ar.. i'm looking forward to it.. wan looking forward to meet your group of frenz.. hahaha.. feel free to tag me if you are reading my blog..

today trainin let mi realise tat my bball skill have rusted liao.. really gone down hill man.. so tmk game.. try my best liao guys.. if ball cannot go in means salted veggie life ar.. lol.. and my shoulder still bleeding despite it been two day when i got this wound.. think muz take good care of this wound if not.. really gone case ar if infected.. lol.. and lastly i juz wanna add.. this long weekend sux.. coz i have project and presentation to cover.. cannot really enjoy.. hahahaha..

p.s. - Kang nex time you free juz call me lo.. since your work place so near my school.. anytime wanna have lunch juz give a call and we shall do some more catching up and compare who is the winner.. opps.. shhhh.. lol...